Life post four-What's in the dark.

As a child most people have a fear of the dark but only a few have it through to their teenage and adult years.

I'am one of these people, it's not the darkness that scares me just the thought of not knowing what's out there in the dark although monsters don't exist and too be honest I would rather run into a monster than a stranger in the dark as you are unsure of what that persons like or if they want to kill me.

Although I wouldn't admit this to my family or anyone else that I know I'am absolutely terrified of being in the dark, which means I have to tell my parents that I leave the light on because I read before bed and fall asleep with it on, but I'am learning to over come this by thinking what's the worst that's going to happen is likely that the person wants to kill me? That I'm going to get lost? And by carrying a torch for those just incase moments.

I have started to be able to sleep with only the faint glow of my phone (which I hope I won't need soon), I'am able to walk down my road without running.

To many people this won't seem like much at all but to me it's a massive step and I hope that it will mean that I can go out in the dark with confidence that I won't be killed as I walk home from the bus stop.

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Outfit of the day- on the bus.

Sorry this is not the best but I thought I might as well show you what I'm wearing today..

Leather jacket- new look
Wings jumper- top shop
Jeans- new look
Converse- office

Life post three-The feeling if failure.

Failure - is the state or condition of not meeting a desirable or intended objective, and may be viewed as the opposite of success.

The feeling of failure is something I have pretty much all of the time it can because of the smallest thing in the world like spelling something wrong.

For someone with confidence as low as mine this is one of the worst things ever as being my age you need to have a job in order to do things, after being let go from my old job for not being confident enough this is scary as to get a job you need to have an interview which means putting yourself out there and talking about yourself in front of strangers and when the interview is over the feeling of failure comes over and you worry about what they thought of you and if your get the job.

People always say you need to believe in your self and what you do which is impossible if you think your ping to fail before you even start.

To feel less of a failure you need to think positive (which is hard) about what you have done for example 'I didn't get the job'- 'at least I have some interview practice and now know what I should do next time'.
This may sound hard and I know it is but it's going to take time and in the log run you will feel better about what you do and it will be worth it because you will become more confident.

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